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2019- Reflecting on the Highs and the Lows

It’s roughly 5 days before the decade ends. And just to keep up with my writing, I decided to write my first blog on my own channel this year! Yes, you heard it right, this will technically be my first blog of 2019! How uncanny it seems but I finally mustered the courage to finally do this before the earth completes yet another round around the sun! I hope I get to publish the blog before we bid goodbye to 2019.

This blog is happening, all thanks to a dear friend who also happens to be a blogger! They say friends bring out the best in you! And Shalu did just that to me when she coaxed me into writing this blog earlier this morning. As usual, I wanted an interesting topic to close the year! What better than a reflective post for the year of 2019.

So here are some of the reflections and retrospections I make as I look behind what all 2019 gave me. How good it was as a teacher, a friend and as a person who believed in me. Yes, I categorically specified the year as a person, because honestly when you look back, time teaches you a dozen lessons! 2019 was no different:

1. FOCUS AND YOU SHALL FIND IT

All of us know it is an old saying, but I found meaning in the above quote the year 2019 only. I started a new job and just like a fresher, I was jittery. I was a little skeptical since I was re-joining my old workplace. When you go to a place where people already know you, there is a certain sort of baggage that one needs to deal with! People expect you to perform at the same exponential level when they saw you last! I kind of felt the same pressure an actor feels when he has already delivered a hit at the box office and is slated for the next release.

My learning was almost nil back in the old organization, and hence I was apprehensive if I’d be able to keep up with the new job in 2019. My work also requires me to keep on upscaling technology after a few days/months. But a big big thanks to my manager who has been also my friend and confidante right from the time I started my career! He instilled confidence and placed his trust in me! Thanks to him, I am work-wise right on track now and keeping up with my work domain expertise.

2. YOU GAIN SOME, YOU LOSE SOME

As humans, we always have the tendency to look at the things, emotions or people we lose. But if we just turn and look at the circumstances from a different angle we’d see the beauty!

I didn’t blog a lot in 2019, so I kind of lost in that field. But, but that is not the end of the story. I regained hold of lost technical work learning of past t two years and set my foot firm professionally at work.

For those of you who don’t know I work full-time at a multinational IT firm. My profession and passion are two diverse and opposite topics and just like a normal human being I sometimes fail to balance the two. In short, I juggle, but sometimes I become clumsy!

The Year 2019 made me realize through its lens, that it’s okay to lose because there’s a little bit of gain happening in the hindsight!

3.BE YOUR OWN HAPPINESS KA DABBA

I have had my shares of lows in life, and I always say one thing! I repeat that today as well.

No one, I repeat no one can make you HAPPY, but YOURSELF!

I stuck to this mantra in the year 2019, and I couldn’t be more glad!
Of course, friends and family will stick on, but in the end, it is up to you to decide how you want to spend the rest of your life!

4. BEING BUSY CAN POSSIBLY BE THE BEST IDEA

An empty mind is a devil’s workshop!

No sane person would disagree with that. While I was at my lowest roughly three years back- there’s only one thing I wished and yearned for!
Back in those days, I used to pay daily visits to a nearby temple. And there is only one thing I prayed for – I asked God to keep me so freaking busy that I don’t get even an iota percent of the time to think about anyone or – anything! And guess what- IT WORKED.

The year 2019 was no different. I was so busy and occupied at the professional front that I hardly had any time to think about anything else! Sure I missed out on the blogger front, in terms of writing and brand collaborations, but I think it is okay!!

Honestly being busy helps me steer away from negative emotions and keeps me highly motivated. When I end up tired at the end of the day, my eyes close automatically when I am in bed and trust me that is the best feeling!!

5.STOP WAITING FOR THAT ONE PERSON

I won’t lie if I said I spent half of 2018 thinking that someday, I would remarry again!! the thought of living alone was always killing me. The pressure of raising my little one all alone was piercing enough to rob me of my peace of mind!

But 2019 was all about keeping all of this in the backburner, and concentrate on my own self!

All in all, if I had to sum it, the year 2019, was all about learning more on the professional front! Like I said sometimes when you are too busy you have little time to complain about the things you otherwise need to be grateful for!

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